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I wish to reflect upon my weekend, one I could have spent with friends
On the one hand the plan was half-baked, a good recipie on paper with horrid results in the kitchen. As much as I wanted to leave that Friday and travel to Potsdam...one day of planning is not something I can handle....I had so much in terms of an essay and homework and the play, not to mention the laundry that was slowly killing my wardrobe.
On the other....I felt an inexplicable wall fly up around me. To travel up there felt like I would be...intruding. Shaina told me we would surprise Kevin but...I feel that I may just be part of his shadow now...as if in some sick twisted joke of the past he wouldn't be around when we came calling or tell me 'OH! I didn't know you were coming, but I'm busy'
Not even to mention the fact that many of the Freeways or thruways or whatever were closed due to the snow we got. People spent the nights in their cars on the road and in a lot of places they couldn't plow until the cars were moved off the road.
I know you're probably mad at me...or disappointed.
I'm sorry. It seems as if I have my own self to get over first.
I regret it. Yet I don't
I'm lonely. Yet I am not
I'm bored. Yet I am comfortable
I'm happy. Yet I am utterly utterly sad
Or something like that
I wish to reflect upon my weekend, one I could have spent with friends
On the one hand the plan was half-baked, a good recipie on paper with horrid results in the kitchen. As much as I wanted to leave that Friday and travel to Potsdam...one day of planning is not something I can handle....I had so much in terms of an essay and homework and the play, not to mention the laundry that was slowly killing my wardrobe.
On the other....I felt an inexplicable wall fly up around me. To travel up there felt like I would be...intruding. Shaina told me we would surprise Kevin but...I feel that I may just be part of his shadow now...as if in some sick twisted joke of the past he wouldn't be around when we came calling or tell me 'OH! I didn't know you were coming, but I'm busy'
Not even to mention the fact that many of the Freeways or thruways or whatever were closed due to the snow we got. People spent the nights in their cars on the road and in a lot of places they couldn't plow until the cars were moved off the road.
I know you're probably mad at me...or disappointed.
I'm sorry. It seems as if I have my own self to get over first.
I regret it. Yet I don't
I'm lonely. Yet I am not
I'm bored. Yet I am comfortable
I'm happy. Yet I am utterly utterly sad
Or something like that
I'm sure Kevin would have loved to see you; I think you're being irrational about him being busy. And even if he was, I would have hung out with you and kept you company. I know it's not the same as with Kevin (and I'm not offended by it not being the same) but it's still better than being alone there. =/
I wish you would have came, but it's okay that you didn't. I'm not offended at all; I can't wait to see you.
I think we're all a bit confused...
I'll talk to you on MSN when next you sign on...