Shur'tugal

torrentialstorm @ 2006-11-14T00:03:00

2006-11-14T00:03:35Z

lol

2006-11-13T15:58:53Z

Oh!
I'm pretty sure I'm going to change this journal to FRIENDS ONLY~
so um yeah...get on that

http://www.worldslastchance.com/index.php?p=next_and_last_pope.php
BEWARE HIS SECOND COMING

So yesterday I went to a test run meeting of our unofficial anime club (test run referring to meeting on Sunday). I had a lot of fun, but then again I generally do have a lot when I go there--don't get me wrong I LOOOVE my deltas but anime club is just...everyone (all like 6 of us xD) is just amazing and I love them all <333 even Nick the loser :D So anway we met at 7:30 in the Union and watched some anime and youtube on my laptop~ <3 then somehow we talked of eating at Trax and so we did xD We made the cross-campus journey to TRAX and I'm sure I at least, weired some people out xD CAUSE I HAD MOUNTAIN DEEEEW. I don't really drink much soda anymore...mostly water but it was nice to get a change :3 just like when I get home I'm insisting on like Wendys or something like that one of those days...RAAWR

BUT ANYWAY
yes, soon my journal will be friends onry so um,..

SNAP TO IT

torrentialstorm @ 2006-11-12T01:36:00

2006-11-12T01:36:06Z

lol

I love how people I meet online tell me I'm pretty...

But no one out here has the guts to say it =(

torrentialstorm @ 2006-11-01T20:53:00

2006-11-01T20:53:31Z

Before I woke up this morning....

I saw a starch white sign with black lettering

"I CAN TELL YOU WHO YOU ARE"

And before I could read the name, or if any....

I woke up.

...

2006-10-30T17:27:41Z

I had to put this somewhere....

I really don't like my friend's earring...it's just....@_@
Then again I don't like most earrings on most guys.
Hoops and big rocks are no-no.
Small studs are okay if only in one ear.

Gaaah and now I see him on facebook and he's taking a bunch of emo pictures that are sure to show the earring.

But it's not my decision to make really.

I think one of my bigger reasons for not liking it is because it makes him, Kevin, different.
Blah blah blah college is for change >:(

hohum

So lately I've been wondering about my choices here in college...and now I see myself on so many paths that I don't know where to go....

TELL ME
Where do you see me....

Writer
Fashion Designer
Psychologist
Teacher
Chef
Other?-explain!

So please, post back with what you think would fit me
then you can repost it if you want with your own career choices.....

NGANA

Choir

2006-10-29T00:33:34Z

Well today was my first choral concert and the first one where not a member of my family came :3 It was interesting n___n
It was the Intercolligate Choral Festival of Western NY actually!
We were the third group to go on and the first group (which was entirely women) performed a favorite of mine, Ah si mon moine :D Though it kinda sounded funny with no men.

My ABSOLUTE FAVORITE was a song by the RIT singers from Australia called "Ngana" Gaaaah everything about it was wonderful, there was even hand clapping and foot stomping and GAAH

EVERYONE SHOULD LISTEN TO THAT SONG NOW

torrentialstorm @ 2006-10-28T03:59:00

2006-10-28T04:00:05Z

http://www.i-am-bored.com/bored_link.cfm?link_id=20265

torrentialstorm @ 2006-10-27T01:17:00

2006-10-27T01:18:13Z

Concert

2006-10-25T02:03:46Z

Soo...my first ever college choir concert is this Saturday and our lineup is as follows...

Hodie Christus Natus Est
The Holly and the Ivy
How Lovely Are the Messengers
Magnificat (this name is longer but I'm too lazy to get up and look in my folder)

It's not really in that order but whatever....

It'll be interesting considering it's a collaboration of a bunch of choral groups :3 The one in december is just us performing in a church (I hope it's the Episcopal one....)

I'm...nervous I suppose. It's awkward to hold the music when I'm this close to a concert and I can't imagine how it'll feel up on the stage.

This is also the 1st concert my parents won't be coming to...which I'm okay with because I am around 6 hours away.

WHICH REMINDS ME

I cannot wait, cannot absolutely wait until the 20th of November. I'll be on a plane and by around 8:30ish I'll be at home with my dogs and my family!
EEEE
It'll be my first time home since...well since I came here. Unlike some people, I don't have the luxury of driving home every weekend.

torrentialstorm @ 2006-10-20T00:25:00

2006-10-20T04:37:42Z

Brain dead brain fuck
Get on your knees beg for me
Sickly sore and out of luck
Brain dead brain fuck

Right left front back
Listen to the locusts
They'll skin you alive
When you reach out a hand
To help them up

torrentialstorm @ 2006-10-17T18:56:00

2006-10-17T19:11:46Z

Let's see.

I wish to reflect upon my weekend, one I could have spent with friends

On the one hand the plan was half-baked, a good recipie on paper with horrid results in the kitchen. As much as I wanted to leave that Friday and travel to Potsdam...one day of planning is not something I can handle....I had so much in terms of an essay and homework and the play, not to mention the laundry that was slowly killing my wardrobe.

On the other....I felt an inexplicable wall fly up around me. To travel up there felt like I would be...intruding. Shaina told me we would surprise Kevin but...I feel that I may just be part of his shadow now...as if in some sick twisted joke of the past he wouldn't be around when we came calling or tell me 'OH! I didn't know you were coming, but I'm busy'

Not even to mention the fact that many of the Freeways or thruways or whatever were closed due to the snow we got. People spent the nights in their cars on the road and in a lot of places they couldn't plow until the cars were moved off the road.

I know you're probably mad at me...or disappointed.

I'm sorry. It seems as if I have my own self to get over first.

I regret it. Yet I don't
I'm lonely. Yet I am not
I'm bored. Yet I am comfortable
I'm happy. Yet I am utterly utterly sad

Or something like that

torrentialstorm @ 2006-10-15T22:32:00

2006-10-16T02:33:09Z

Hm...

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to kill someone

Thank you Dexter

torrentialstorm @ 2006-10-14T23:52:00

2006-10-15T03:58:58Z

Death
Thin cold razor take my life
Pool at my wrists, stain the tiles
My eyes will slowly close
But still all the while
my only thoughts will be of you
the one whom I wish to know
The one whom I wished to embrace
Before I meant to go
For one does not undstand
How lonely I truly am
When I have no one to call
some one here my friend

Love
Alone we sit on this bench
watching the world go by
Our eyes meet and the world just stops
And there is no need to ask why
But I feel that we were destined
to become one in this moment
as the snow falls gently
Our love seems heaven sent
Under the glow of the streetlamp
Our beings entwined hand to hand
We share a single warm kiss
In this cold winter wonderland

Two poems I just wrote...I rather like the 2nd one...a different outlook from my....usual subjects. It's always seemed like the perfect setting. Sitting on a park bench, or perhaps not as the snow falls....quiet, beautiful and sacred.

Funny

2006-10-13T04:23:36Z

It is so funny (and almost very scary) how much this is ME

FEBRUARY: ABSTRACT THOUGHTS. Loves REALITY and ABSTRACT. Intelligent and clever. CHANGING PERSONALITY. Attractive. sexy. TEMPERAMENTAL. Quiet, SHY and humble. HONEST and LOYAL. DETERMINED to reach goals. Loves FREEDOM. REBELLIOUS when restricted. Loves AGGRESSIVENESS. Too SENSITIVE and easily HURT. Gets ANGRY really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

Please, reflect.

torrentialstorm @ 2006-10-12T22:02:00

2006-10-12T22:07:26Z

LOLOLOLOLOL FIRST SNOW HERE AT BROCKPORT XDD

AND TONIGHT WAS DISNEY NIGHT IN THE DINING HALL SO THEY ONLY PLAYED DISNEY MUSIC

LOLOLOLOL

torrentialstorm @ 2006-10-12T04:14:00

2006-10-12T04:28:20Z

Pick up your feet and walk this crooked path with me
For my arms are bound behind my back
And my eyes are clamped shut so I may not see
the carnage of the world around us
Cobblestones, pebbles, rocks, dirt and peat
The only beings of this place I feel
beneath the soles of my own scarred feet
And the rain slipping down my face
As my empty eyes cry silently
Cools the meaty tongue hanging from my mouth
But the droplets do not quench me
I have arrived in my own hell
Where fire burns but leaves no sign
And water flows but does not heal
The only signs of pain kept inside
Rotting like a blackened peel

Blargh something I'm working on.
Nothing really new to report....

DREW A KICK ASS DRAGON THOUGH <33

And so...

2006-10-09T01:48:41Z

I seem to have developed a fondness for someone...

but unfortunately they are intangible...a person I have met online....

We talk and he flatters me with compliments but that is true to his nature....

But still...

Perhaps that one quiz was right?

Perhaps I am destined to find love over cyberspace?

Will I ever find love?

torrentialstorm @ 2006-10-07T23:36:00

2006-10-08T03:37:58Z

Playing with my new Webcam~

torrentialstorm @ 2006-10-04T20:02:00

2006-10-05T00:16:12Z

Nevermind

torrentialstorm @ 2006-10-01T20:11:00

2006-10-02T00:28:34Z

Sometimes...

I wonder how far I would go if I never got caught.

Think about it...

I dwelled upon this as my 'food for thought' when I went walking today.

To have the freedom to destroy the aspects of your life that you detested and have nothing connecting you to this.

It would be like becomming as god among men, a judge among the guilty.

Then again, some people may wish for the recognition of their slayings.

Or something like that.

So please, share with me your thoughts. How far do you think you would go if there was never a chance of you getting caught?
Would the guilt pile in your mind until your skull burst with pleas of sorrow and remorse? Would you run straight to the police to report the incident?

...

Or would you smile, wipe the slate clean...and move on? Would you laugh at those who buckled under the weight of their own souls?

Where would you be?

Possibly more on this later, but I must reflect upon myself

Which I seem to do a lot lately.

torrentialstorm @ 2006-09-30T23:29:00

2006-10-01T03:32:13Z

So this weekend was Homecoming :3

My parent's did come up, and so did my sister who made it a point to continue telling me that she was missing Dragonforce for me. They arrived very late Thursday, the day I also had Anime Club, and during the day on Friday they took Blair to University of Buffalo and then they collected me for dinner.

You never quite know how much you miss anyone until you see them again. I was so happy to see my parents, to see my sister. When we ate together everything fell into place, and it was like I had never left. We wandered around Wal-Mart and Wegmans and it just felt...like we were whole again. But at the same time I felt outside of the box....like I was no longer part of that home life...but I ignored it and moved on.

After the shopping we hung around in my dorm for a while, talking and laughing...enjoying candy corn and television while my dad diddled on my laptop.

Then I said goodnight, happy to see them.

Today I woke up at a decent time, and went with my family into town to watch the Homecoming parade. My mom bought us hot chocolate and it was fun n-n The theme was Nick shows, and the Beetlejuice float was very very good :3 and the Are You Afraid of the Dark? one. My dad said he would get me a digital camera when I came home for Thanksgiving so yeah :3

We actually went to the Football game and watched for 3 quarters as the Brockport Golden Eagles slowly died. We gave up on the last quarter and walked around, even going to the Carnival—but it was pretty shitty.

My sister actually wanted to stay with me tonight, and of course I was more than happy to accommodate her. It made me happy she wanted to spend time with me (though it might have just been to get away from my parents lol) I really think besides the dogs, I missed her the most…yes we get into tiffs, but they’re very short and well…unique.

Soon there will be a mid-semester break? I think after Columbus day, but I probably won’t be going home…I’ll probably be stuck up here in Brockport by myself until Thanksgiving.
It makes me a bit sad D:

But I’ll live I suppose <3

Slowly making some friends here otherwise…

Oh! I’m writing the script for our Gilgamesh play :D It’s gonna be funny n-n

torrentialstorm @ 2006-09-29T15:52:00

2006-09-29T19:53:33Z

Be Wary of the Steams

Upon my merry walk that day
Along the road against the stream
I spotted the most peculiar thing
The souls of men that I could glean
So I found a rock from which to watch
As they flowed in the hasty current
Few tried to climb right up the bank
Only to be dragged down by the torrent
Their oozing slime covered bodies
Squishsmackslammed against the walls
And would have made a funny sound
If they were not screaming at all

From my high spot my arm did dangle
My mind consumed by the noisy rocks
When I felt a pulling on my limb
And the soul hanging began to talk
“Please save me from this horrid place”
It began, blind eyes blinking in the sun
“It is cold and damp and horrid for even me”
It should be noted that I would have now run
But it’s tiny vice grip hands dug into my skin
Thick yellow nails ripping my flesh
And thus its plea did again begin,
“Please save me from this horrid place”
Alas though poor man turned beast
My arm did succumb to the earth’s gravity
And the soul fell with my arm into the deep

So now if you find yourself walking
Along the road next to the stream
Be careful looking into there
For it is like nothing ever seen
Please keep you hands out
And simply turn back to the road
For you may not loose just an arm
But yourself as a whole

I love how this ends x3 <33333

And I got a new roomy

torrentialstorm @ 2006-09-28T00:40:00

2006-09-28T04:52:50Z

Ahhhh~

Soon to come, a beautiful new background :D

Yes yes I still love my angry angsty Death Note...and that will return at some point...

but Ouran High School Host Club has grabbed my heart with an iron grip ;P

I especially like the twins, Hikaru and Kaoru~

And Haruhi is clueless when it comes to a lot of stuff xDD;;

FWI the twins are in my default icon =DD
Their customers come for 'brotherly love' LOL

Ahhhh~~~~

Hm...

Parents are coming tomorrow...and I'm going out to dinner

But I also have the 1st anime club meeting where they're nominating people for positions ;_______;

I dun know what to dooooooo
The meeting is at 8
and my parent's are picking me up at 6:30

ugggh not enough time! ><;;;

Even sooo...

I'm planning out a dinner for my friends that I want to cook for them :3 But I need some adivce...
The menu includes Cheese Tortellini and Italian Sausage Soup ...it's also got tomatoes, onion, garlic...so it's got a bit of a bite to it.
There is an appetizer of melted mozzarella on Ritz crackers with some plain spaghetti sauce

Now, should I skip the appetizer and serve the Ritzzarella crackers (fancy name ;D ) with the soup instead of plain bread? Might make things more interesting :3

And another big question, what to serve as desert? I don't want to do something too heavy so maybe like a chocolate mousse? I know someone said a chocolate cake, but that is a bit heavy, no?
Or just some sundae making?

Merf I need to think more on this issue >:3

torrentialstorm @ 2006-09-26T00:20:00

2006-09-26T04:21:02Z

Ouran High School Host Club

I am CRAZY for that now :DDDD

It's sooo cute!

:3

torrentialstorm @ 2006-09-24T22:48:00

2006-09-25T02:52:24Z

Lately I've grown this little image in my head of a picture beyond college...

If I don't live with my parents after, which I'm not sure is good or bad, I think I'd like to get an apartment with some friends.

:)

Perhaps it's a pipe dream...after all the people I imagine inhabiting the house may change

But I'd like to think it won't change :D